I USED TO KNOW EACH OTHER

I USED TO KNOW EACH OTHER

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Suddenly I want to cry, because everything that I now suffer, it is indeed too compared with my stamina, I was one daughter, also want to be appreciated. Yet from birth until now I've never felt the good things that people do for me at all, apart from the damage to ... actually I do not understand I was born in this world means nothing not anymore ... Because I'm ugly ... Because I'm weak ... Because I'm pathetic stars ???

I USED TO KNOW EACH OTHER

I do not understand bad there is one man's defective or not as the first beauty queen once said that inherently have the nature of beauty is one talented then. 17 years of schooling is 17 years my torment. I never want to go to school at all, not because of ignorance but because I learned I too bad. Not that I am humble with their beauty but because the truth is that !!

I remember the first time gurgling stolen briefcase to school with much joy and dreams have been dashed by one classmate belly hugging guffawing when he saw me, he grabbed her hand and asked, "Mom Oh, there may be aliens not? Why has so short and ugly mother? ". My mother first glance it does not reveal the emotion and pulled him away, I heard the faint DC couple from "Do not play with people like you not hear?". My face purple rim because too shy, just wanted to run home immediately I remembered that I only wanted to cry, but tears can not flush ...

The day after I was a chain with an extremely bad day, all my friends were shunned, although I'd love to play with them. I know, just because I'm bad, I hated so new, so after that I never dared to speak to anyone. Once you class president forgot to bring pens, I had held out for him on loan, so that he not only did not take my kindness but also throw away and say one sentence Phang but I still can not forget "ugly furniture, he thought he was someone that I have to write pen you?". Wonder why that moment my tears fall, is the father of 2 lashes. Maybe now I had repressed for so long, and now they can not take it anymore or something.

When I cry, there should have your little kindness to be heading up but it looks like you in class is much more fun than seeing my tears did wet shirt or something. Your son was class president, but he does not respect her daughter, citing the end to take action to end my hair and screaming "This looks so its sam, like oxtail so" then he and his friends Layer hug belly laugh hysterically. Apparently then, the limit of endurance was gone, I lunged, taking the pair hit to pull over his head, so that other kids have to work to push me out and treated me new council only. Baby hair grabbed, slapped children, have children still throw my slippers in the trash again. At that time I bruised, disastrous, who is listed scrapes, blood ... I suffer ...

The next day, I was called up and asked her teacher why you beat him class president. I can honestly answer that because he grabbed my hair before so that she did not believe, and asked you in class again, but no one who supported me. They all say I beat him before. And so I called parents up. My mom got the error surface layer thickens and slapped me first and then catch the middle class I apologize class president. I do not get stubborn errors by inherently's not my fault anyway.

At that time I thought I was very brave to do that, I think I'm not wrong, and that action is correct. But of course no one thought would, in their eyes I was always wrong ... I always hated, and in that moment, I had cut himself off from the world, the living world his solitude - first only my own world, does not appear to add 1 other person, regardless of one who ... I've lived that, lost and lonely in the next 11 years ... I see comfortable because of that, I do not need anyone besides, I do not need the pity of 1 artificially some people around.

But my life seems gloomy dissipated by certain rays 1 ...

-Hi, I get used to, but one strange jumps in nick nick I do know, I very strange, hesitant to type each letter on the keyboard

- Sorry, I know you not?

- I saw him on 4rum nick should want to familiarize the severance

- What reason?

I smiled because this was the first time someone wants to get familiar with me, even though I know, just out there, just online, is just a virtual world

- Nothing ^^ ~ merely cute to see you alone.

Cute? I bent down to a smirk, if he saw me and they will surely recover from his speech just now lost. I guarantee.

- How did you know?

- There was nothing that I did not know at all! ~ !! Which I say is always right

- Seems you are quite confident in myself, right?

- Not really, just believe in yourself alone I think it's a good thing hehe.

- I called ADD, and you =))

- Yeah yeah I'm with you almost the same name, I name List: p

- 1 name very well, huh!

- The full name is Pham Nam Thanh My

I laughed, this young man is indeed quite cute.

Starting that day, I have one friend, almost every night we talk to each other online, it seems that one habit, or maybe this is located in the timetable of two children. When looking at the clock only to number 10 is I clean everything to one side to sit at the keyboard. The only manipulation was open yahoo and type in the login window.

Indeed very happy to talk to Members, as if he understood all my people, those that moment I just want to stop time as we were chatting with each other than, for longer. The story of two kids we very funny, sometimes suddenly he asked the question extremely silly and bothers me.

- You want me to call you banana or bananas =)

When you see me knocking icon x (he left himself answered: - Well bananas for it so unique.

Then my face flushed just shy away recently.

There one day he suddenly get a phone number, I hesitate, I really do not want to have one true friend in real life, because then people would leave me alone, nobody wants to make friends with one ugly guys fish. Like swans can not duck swimming in the same election. So I lied that I had no phone, that I found online this talk could not have stars. On the chat window pops up 1 icon sigh, then 1 the words "No phone but why are you still alive, right?".

I smiled lightly, as if no one knew of my existence, to do so on the phone anyway ??

To the listener's mind the other people, when I tell if I'm not cute as he thought, To just say I lack confidence in myself, I secretly hoped it was true, because it was not his was my first thought, it is thought of all the people around me-the cause haunt me during one very long long time ... .... I do not know if I have enough courage sure to escape the gaze despise that people give me no more. I do not know when we shall be able shedding from duck to become a swan ...

A week before I do not understand why not online anymore, suddenly I want to go backwards, to shake off his current life - users, the only friend of my ever. All are only available because of the guilt from themselves from 11 years ago, I just went out from the entrance around to the other entrance to avoid the darkness but then return with the special black of night. Perhaps the light made me sore eyes, I want to return to their availability: The loneliness.

I never met with Members - that is of course, because I'm not dare to fear when they see my face anyway. Even the mirror I durst not shed the reason why I deserve to meet people anyway? I still keep on thinking what I want to know that despite the very aspects Members, I want to know how he was, there is not the same as online time, with friendly, cheerful no ... there are so many questions I and then set out on their own as well reply: Sure he is also thinking like me, he would like one prince, but still I ... I do not want to disappoint him, compare between two people is indeed one great distances, so I could not think any more for me to turn on the computer at 10pm seemed very familiar then, so that 7 days I did not dare touch it, I'm afraid will see the login window appears and yahoo and I'll re-type id and nick his look, my heart arrhythmias will again see the light and posted his nick the line idle status. Such questions him about me not? Yes its sad not to the network? ... Themselves surrounded in the beginning and then I turn, my hands trembling typing each letter of his name id.

Quick Look 1 plays, he's not bright nick, I sigh, and frustration inside. An offline message window comes up, I suddenly, all, are of Members. In 7 days I do not go online, every day he also sent a message to: - Chan too, he does not wait forever ol, he is busy anything? - God, today also bombed his back to Asia, huh? You are brilliant - Hey rummage bananas, bananas mistaken à 3 days already, do not you remember me really? You heartless too huhu - Or that he was ill, on hybrid go see, he looked nick black dark soy sauce clear estrangement - Today my soccer team won the first prize, go online I will tell he heard my trophy -This here have a lot of gear then, if you're here, I will share to you one half, you ol hehe I'll let you 1/3. The last day, as yesterday he sent me sign attached Figure 3 dots sad face :( -...

When I was lonely and felt that I was at fault for failing to appreciate this friendship when suddenly one window appears with Buzz sound startled me, I see him ... I suddenly laugh very fresh, 2 hand directly on the keyboard one quick way

- Banana bunch

- What's wrong, why say you so, huh?

- You dare to bomb me?

- Hi few days ago my home computer on a network is broken up not only that, he sory nhé

- Know sorry as well that

- The remaining cake today does not so

- It is true that her daughter was eating only fast food has ceased to be where I J It really ...

...

- Hey bananas, this Sunday I met him to go Eh?

I startled regretted turn the computer - I have not got much

- Do not quibble him he did not want to see me as I was you, right?

- Uh, not that, just ... I had barely finished typing the message from his saw - I do not know, so go, 4pm this Sunday before Kim Dong Theatre, I'll wear a T-shirt blue, without the phone because I knew was certain he would recognize me. O Statistics. I take a shower here.

Then he was out, I dully looked in vain. For several days I did not go online heaven, I know it is not so important any more by the mind The moment she just shows up one bar very beautiful, very cute, if you see me then, what His dream will almost collapsed, just as 1 sandcastle being hooked on this wave. I never dared to think of the prospect of the two sitting opposite to each other, although I'm very curious about him. I also want to know how he's the master, but if he bombed it indeed I too unscrupulous and selfish. What should I do? It should do so both he and I were not hurt here?

Both the 7th night I almost did not sleep, just thinking about whether to go or not, and then I decided to try brave one time, I want to see him. 2 hours, I sit in front of mirrors, glass very carefully, because there would have long ago I do not sit in front of the mirror than 5 minutes. Today I have boldly tried to change myself first bit more carefully combed hair, lipstick little bowl for bright face ... finally after finishing your actions, I smiled wryly, was not quite But a little bit more final reason urged me to go and then I get up, take the bus to arrive To appointment.

On the bus I was shaking hands too, just entwined, their faces were perhaps thinking too, are generally very difficult to understand, I half wanted to meet him half wanted to return.

- Kim Dong Theatre down doors.

I was startled, why so fast that? I go to press lights, while putting a hand on my arm lamp press really shaky, like this old woman's hand, so there are people who have shouted: - Press quickly. Bus door opened, I hurried down the steps, go back a few steps to the theater, I thought wistfully eyes glued to the ground on his not understanding how that came here anymore ... Why I Can meet one stranger anyway? I'm crazy? Rational thought but my feet kept going 1 cryptically.

When I stand in front the theater before, looked around one turn to find the City, wearing green T-shirts, game shows, then, that one boy with brown hair, extremely delicate face, leaning against the electric bike sometimes put his hand on what time. I guess that's Wall. Yes, very like my thoughts, he's very handsome, look like Korean actor So in that moment my heart kept beating it all up is no longer the rhythm again, I tremble much but really happy to meet Members, but I feel sad because our appearance much too far apart. I know now no longer the Prince - Cinderella anymore, where I also qualified to do Cinderella anyway? I sighed, eyes gazing City, suddenly looked closely, I saw he was very familiar, as if I had never met him? Right? I rummaged in my memory the image List, but not, what occurred to me at that time was his only class president once had hair and hit my stop carnage ... no, not you then, why one person is cute as Members obnoxious kid that was anyway? "=)) Yeah yeah I'm with you almost the same name, I name List: p 1 name very well, huh! Full name is Pham Nam Thanh My," "our class rep, you Pham Nam Thanh" "I certain know he'll realize I "I like crazy just shook my head desperately, I do not believe, I do not dare to believe, can not, not, certainly can not be the guy that year class president, I was very ill Why could it be ....

The mid-summer cold I Hanoi, but wants to prove he's not back him class president, I slowly step by step approach, to be able to look carefully, to be sure things are impossible. In moments of his glance as if time is reversed, in the beginning I only hear the screams cursing "ugly furniture, he thought he was someone that I must write his pen instead ?," looks Its so-sam this, so just like oxtail, "" ugly furniture "that surrounded the sound in my head like one within the Matrix, I was scared, I ran forward, to where I did not know where, I just knew I had to run to escape here, to escape his past ...

I buried her in a thick layer of cotton blankets and did not want to step out there, I almost despair with the world around us, why tease me so? I had hoped could be, had the honor to know some new friends, so that is who I hate most, to the one who took me to the dark world like today, I hate, I hate you .... Why do anyway? Why let me see him ... why do I know him? Is this joke so mean no ..... I sat up wiping tears, yes, I can not, can not make friends with him, it is of course, and I would never want talk more 1 again with him ... My hands trembling typing each letter on the keyboard http://yahoo.com.vn Delete yahoo-permanently. That is what I will do now, is how I eliminate him in his world, the only way passwords When typing the first line are very strong psychologically but when asked to enter the password again hand I was trembling strangely, as if I was mistyped addition, the system required to enter it again, then looked at the icon in the toolbar yahoo unconsciously I opened it, like this one habit, I do not know if I opened it up in the moment to do anything else? To look back at the nick them? Or just do not see messages offline? My mood just like one confused jumble, in this moment even I myself do not understand what you're doing and what they need.

Nick he's not bright. My Yahoo only his nickname, called Light, one tear rolled down his cheek, then suddenly fell to my lips, choking bitterness. 1 I just cried quietly, but there is also one habit already. As too is human suffering can not be moved to tears, as when people become unconscious no longer feel the pain of his own again, and I, should not be so fortunate? While I still can feel the pain of yourself? 1 Another window appears, the message offline, in 4 days "Good night pig love =))", "bananas re doing? Afraid not dare talk to me ah" "I want to see you too, 1 days to go that long hic hic right disgusting "" Qing Well, today I know that you've come, and maybe he did see me? I do not know if I met him again or not? Maybe he has not been very long time see me, right? I'm not sure you can forgive me for the job before or not but I actually wanted to apologize to him. When that I was too young to be aware of the actions of I was hurting so much he does. Maybe he did not know, I learned next to his class, and I struggled to find enough courage to get the ID at you, say so does not it? I wanted to be friends with him, as I really do, not where you want to atone. Tomorrow I'm waiting for him behind the school, if he agreed to give me one chance, go out to meet me offline. "

My eyes glued to the floor, looked toes are rubbing against each other, in the beginning the first day reminisce about 1 strange nickname jump into talking to me: "Hi, I'm acquainted okay Sorry, I know you not? I saw him on 4rum nick should want to familiarize the only reason for what? Nothing ^^ ~ merely cute to see you alone How do you know There is nothing I do not know at all! ~ !! Which I say is always true Seems you are quite confident in myself anyway Not really, just believe in yourself alone I think it's a good thing hehe I called ADD, and you =)) yeah yeah I'm with you almost identical name, I name List: p 1 name very well, huh! Full name is Pham Nam Thanh My "... I remember I had to laugh ....